Do you know what it's like to want to die every moment of your life, but you have to push that thought to the back of your head? How you want to hurt yourself so bad just to get the feeling of some sort of sick release. I do. And I am starting to slip again I can feel it. I just wish and hope I can hold on till Friday, that's when I have my next psych appointment.
I'm falling back down fast...
I Finally Found Myself.
- Kiki Stop Breathing
- My name is Kirsten Boileau. I have no idea who I am. I lost myself along time ago, if you can even say it was myself I knew. This life I lead scares me and the life ahead scares me even more. I am really hard to figure out and I am too easy to say goodbye to. Some people say I change their lives, and I do, I ruin them. So it's best to never get to know me. I say I am complex but most of that is due to my Personality Disorders, not me myself. You will never know what I am thinking, because my mind is forever changing, as is my life. I might be here one day and leave the next. I'm a wanderer, so please step back and let me go. Because things never do really change, do they?